Optmistic sorrow

You know, it comes to a point were sadness actually looks so graceful. As if it turned into compassion, or to that rest of sometinhg in you that already seemed to have died. And you smile, you smile because you know that some kind of angel passed you by, you smile because something somehow still manages to make you gladly anguished, and you find that you're not as robotic and frigid as you thought you were. You smile because you find hope that youre still alive somehow, even after you had murdered your soul. As if you had misteriously just saved yourself from a destiny that you traced, and you're relieved, and that, only because you're sad, you can hope that youll be joyful again.